PT

It was on January 22, 2009 of 1:45 in the morning that I confirmed I was pregnant, I had my pregnancy test and turns to be positive, Megs was sleeping and I was excited to tell it to him, I wake him up and show the pregnancy test kit and he was like staring, I told him that I'm pregnant, he is in silence, I get the box of pregnancy test kit and show the indicator if it turns positive. He kissed and hugged me tight and told me "ang saya saya ko". At that time I didn't get to sleep, I went online looking for something informative about getting pregnant, I go to work without sleep; I only get sleep when I came home from work that day. I and Megs are very excited, I can feel now being pregnant it's hard but I know I can make it, he/she is right now a blessing to us.

I miss Megs so much

Megs started his work yesterday in Cavite, prior of that we had chat. We started talking about his new job in Cavite, I was asking all the information about his new job, if what he knows about the job and how he was sure about the job but he keeps reminding me not to worry because it was Tatang (his friend and kababata) Tita's who recommended him to that job. Talking to him that time I was a little bit worried and sad too, worried because I was not sure what that job really was about and it would be his first time working again and it was in Cavite pa, far from Bulacan and in Taguig, sad because he'll be stay-in in that job and he'll be working 8am-8pm, he had only 2 days off every month, so we will be seeing each other two days only of every month. We had planned on starting to buy things for the house that his mother allowed us to stay in Bulacan but he got his job kaya na pending yung plan, pero it's good though kasi he'll help me financially to start what we had planned. I just wish he would not change now that he has work, most of everybody change when they got job but he had promised me he will not I hope he will stick to his promise. I miss him so much that I wish I spent more time with him lately I cried sometimes thinking of him how he was doing right now and if he's thinking of me like I do. Anniversary namin this June 28, he promised me he'll be there on our anniversary, I really hope so.

Inbox

I was checking my current email address as I remember my old, unused old email address to check what could have had happened after a long time not opening that email address. I used to have that email address when I was with my ex but after we broke up I tend to leave it and did not gave a damn opening it again so I could not remember the pain I had before. Letters were still there, my letters to him about the pain I had through and how miserable I was wanted him to come back but none of them had any reply. I might regret now sending it to him, too bad it’s too late….